My Light in the Fog

You slowly appeared from the fog,
Like a lighthouse, 
Upon a darkened shore.
The calm amidst the turbulent waters of my mind,
Something to quiet the waves
As they fiercely rock me back and forth.
You helped me tune out the sirens' song
Filled with words of my own self- doubt 
And my quest for who I really am.
You, still there in the fog, stood tall
And stoic
As if it were your job to show me the way 
To safety; 
To save me from my self.
As I travel closer to the shore,
It seems as if you recede,
Away from me 
And back into the fog.
Now, I am forced to navigate these treacherous waters,
Alone.

-J.S.Atkins

Why?

Have you ever wondered why things were not happening the way you thought they should?  Recently I have been questioning why it seemed nothing was going the way I believed it should.  Life should be super easy, right?  Clearly that’s a joke because I know nothing in life is easy and nothing ever happens according to plans.

I have currently been searching for other ways to fulfill my life and time (new employment, supplemental income, relationship, etc.) and most of the doors keep getting slammed in my face.  I know you’re probably thinking that I am being dramatic, but some strange things have been happening when it comes to actually having the interviews.  Although, I did recently enter into a relationship, the guy lives in another state.  Luckily, we have been able to visit each other.  Also, thank you Apple for FaceTime!  This situation is still in no way what I imagined my next relationship would be like. Anyway, I’ve been wondering why none of these things are going the way I thought they would/should go?  There has to be something that is stopping these opportunities from happening the way I want them to.  I have only been able to come up with one answer: God has bigger plans for me than just sitting in an office all day.

I do not believe working in an office and taking orders from everyone else is my calling.  I want to be used for the greater good of a community.  Although I do not have an abundant amount of experience, I do believe that my spirit and drive will motivate me to learn quickly and achieve any tasks or goals that may come my way.

I really believe that this series of unfortunate events is a sign that I need to figure out what my dream career actually is and take the steps to pursue it.  So on I go to figure out what it is that I really want to do and then apply myself to making that happen.

-J.S.Atkins

Break Away

I escape my shelter
Take a peak
Spread my wings
And fly away
No more protection
From the cruel world
Off on my own
To fly or fail
The weather will alter
The wind may be harsh
At moments it will be cold
But on I must go
To continue to soar
Is up to me
Nothing ever comes
Very easily
If I should falter
In these skies
I will not stop
Trying to fly
I broke away
I explored the world
I am off on my own
Just my wings and me

 

– J.S.Atkins