Today, as I sit at my desk, I wonder am I truly happy. Then, I decide to ask myself what actually dictates a person’s happiness. Is it our significant others, our jobs, our materialistic items, or is it our education? Maybe it’s family that gives us that feeling of happiness, but I want it to be more than a feeling. I genuinely want to BE HAPPY.
I have heard that we may have been placed in situations that can deter us from achieving our goals in life and I definitely believe that. The job that I have and the goals that I want to achieve do not align with each other. I want to accomplish so much more than just making a substantial amount of money; I want the money that I make to be a REAL reflection of something I love and of the hard work that I do.
At the moment, I don’t feel like I am of use to anyone and that is probably my fault. How does one move on from feeling like this? Do they create their own path to success by just quitting their job or do they handle their 9-5 as well as work at their dream? I believe that whatever life has in store for me, including this moment of uncertainty, is going to teach me a valuable lesson. I will get through this.
-J. S. Atkins
My parents worked hard for everything that they have and everything that they have given me. I appreciate them for showing me what it is like to come from nothing, but a loving family. I hope to one day be able to have someone say that about me.
I have dreams of being a writer. I want to touch the world with my words. I believe my first step in doing that was creating this blog, but now I am wondering what should my next steps be. Should I start writing my first book? Should I go back to school for my MFA in creative Writing? Should I just keep posting on this blog? All of them are attainable if I just buckle down and really focus on them, but I just can’t seem to find the drive. I know most people say that just having that dream or passion should be enough, but sometimes it isn’t. I personally am taking the time now to dig deeper into what it means to me to be a writer and share my emotions with a bigger audience.
I am venturing into a new project soon and I hope that you all are there to venture with me. I haven’t figured everything out yet, but that is usually how I operate. I will of course continue to post my poetry on here, but I want more from my writing as I am sure it wants more from me.